A CONVERSATION WITH GOD

As an infant, oblivious of Your presence,
Lost in my world of unknown, was I
When my chortles and cries made no sense,
And my thoughts-were either many or all void.

Initially, my parents introduced You to me,
As the Supreme and the all- powerful
That You heard and granted our plea,
Besides, You verily chastened the sinful.

Respect- a misconstrued concept then, I was scared,
Of Your surveillance, and my slip-ups
Fear of penalty for any wrong that I dared,
I complied to the list of ‘rights’ of grown-ups.

The older I grew, I heard more of You,
About Your forms and roles- numerous
Believers in the garb of religion had clashed too,
Didn’t the ‘right’ then bother us?

Well, that didn’t trouble me for late,
Life brought in competition, I joined my hands
I prayed for my results to be great,
Was it silly or innocent, I shall never comprehend.

Our relationship, was simple and linear,
Achievements meant You had answered me,
Shouts of “Why me?”, “Unfair!”-outbursts of failure,
All was definitely superficial between You and me.

Who then turned this alliance into a bond?
Not me! You guide each one after all
Only God can enlighten one about God,
I learned gradually with steps- steady and small.

With examples of others lives as lessons,
And complicated situations as experiments,
You left upon me to draw conclusions,
Gave me the choice to either proceed or lament.

That the list of ‘rights’ can’t be manipulated,
That you are ‘One’, all-pervading and omnipresent
Pointless was a prayer, if hard work not actuated,
And for learning, ups and downs are meant.

Mystified am I of Your eternal design,
As I feel rather than know Your being, now
Still scared, but, of disrespecting The Divine,
Who owns the stage, and to whom I bow.

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Our love – it’s a masterpiece

There is a love that breathes in me
Not the one which puts chains around
Since the time my heart has found
It’s a love that has set me free

They said distance would draw us apart
We never knew what holding hands felt like
Yet we held each other’s love alike
Proximity amidst farness was our reward

They said love drives you crazy
I’ve never been this calm before
They said you’ll keep wanting more
I’ve never felt such contentment in me

A love that knows no destination
Except for a stay in the beloved’s soul
It’s beautiful penance for a heart it stole
Was, enveloping that soul with pure elation

I speak of a love that feels like God
Felt, cherished but never explained
To purify two souls was so framed
Our love, oh it’s a masterpiece of God!

Unraveling the real me

Life knew naught about its trajectory
It waved past me, till far seemed linear
For long concealed, my being refined
Life carved troughs, I etched dreams
Oblivious of the course time chose
Oh yes! I stumbled every now and then
Yet with eyes fixed onto that crest
The one I had sketched as a hopeful child
Redeeming myself from the deep abyss
Blazing forward and inching closer
I get a glimpse of life’s curve, blurred
Still, now as I rise, as I heal, I believe
Life took those avenues to subtly assure
That I could unravel the unique, the real me!

Unraveling the real me